Actually, I don’t really know what to write. I just felt that I had to write and I had to explain to you the reason why I haven’t written for so long. Although I am a small account with few followers and not very high daily reads, I wanted people who came to read my page to learn why I did not keep my promises when they take a look at my page and why I could not write regularly.
I started the 30-day writing challenge a few weeks ago, but I couldn’t continue it much after the first article. I said that I would not write every day for this challenge, but that I would continue at a little more intermittent time when I wanted. After writing the first day, I had a plan to continue in this way. But while I was waiting for the second day to wait for the appropriate time after sharing the first day, this time was more than it should have been. Because events intervened that changed my life.
For a while, I had been making plans to return to being a student after my undergraduate life, which I finished 2 years ago. That’s why I decided to start my master’s degree. Until two months ago, I had done research on marketing, which is the field I wanted, and tried to learn everything about marketing. Afterwards, I took exams in the relevant field at universities and tried to qualify for a master’s degree.
At the end of this whole process, I finally got my master’s degree in production management and marketing in the city I wanted. However, this process did not end with just earning a master’s degree. Unfortunately, I entered a period that took even more of my time afterwards. More precisely, I struggled to find a suitable house in the city where the university is located, and to settle in that house. This period started right after the 30-day writing challenge. For this reason, although I wanted to write every day, I could not sit in front of the computer due to the incredible intensity of that period. When I had so many ideas that I wanted to write, it was really hard for me not to have time for it.
At the moment, I am writing these lines in a short space I found to explain to you why I haven’t been able to write for a while. What kind of period awaits me from now on; I have no idea how often I can write. I don’t think I’ll be able to get back to typing at the computer, at least until I’ve settled down and settled into my new home.
I already have great concerns about how I can continue my master’s degree and whether I will be successful in it. I am constantly questioning whether I am suitable for this. I think that I have no knowledge in the field of marketing and therefore my teachers will not care about me. On top of all these worries, I’m putting a huge burden on my shoulders because I haven’t written for a long time and don’t spend time on the things I love.
I am actually happy to have started a new phase in my life. After my undergraduate degree was over, I had to leave the city I loved, my friends and my boyfriend, and return to my family, the city where I was born. At least I would live with my family until I found a job because I was financially unfit in the city where I did my undergraduate degree. However, since the pandemic was not over and I was working remotely at the job I found after a long time, this period was even longer and I had to create another life with my family for two years. The biggest reason for my happiness is to be back in the same city that I love after these two whole years, to be able to see my friends and to know that I can now meet face to face with my boyfriend.
I am excited about how my life will continue after this. I’m starting a new era and I’m wondering if this new era will do me any good. When I was returning to the family home two years ago, I could not have guessed that I would now be living in my own house.. The me now would never know me two years from now, and where I was and what I was doing. I can reason, but I cannot know for sure. That’s why I want to know what life will bring me. I want to know the answers to questions such as can I make music with my friends, have I succeeded in graduate school, have I finally found a job, how is my relationship with my friends or my girlfriend, or have I improved myself in my writing life?
I am aware that this process will be tiring and intense. Since I couldn’t live the life I wanted for two years, I’m dying to use every opportunity in this city. I want to make music, be successful, and improve my psychology. I know it will be difficult to achieve all this. For this reason, although I want to write every day, I do not want to burden myself more on this subject. While going through a busy enough process, I don’t want to think about this place and keep my mind here. I want you to know that I want to write as often as I can and that’s why I’m going to put my life in order as soon as possible. I will write as much as I can, although not very regularly. I know very well that my psychology will go to the bottom every time I don’t write. Therefore, I realize that even if I do not have time, I have to write. I’m just not going to be too hard on myself about it.
I would like to thank the people who follow me and read my articles during this process. I can’t tell you how happy it makes me to see you follow me. I’m sorry if I’m not getting back to you during this period. I want you to remember that I am going through a very intense and different period.
Originally published at http://kulturkitapligi.wordpress.com on September 19, 2022.
